Fear Of Someone Hurting Me
I get nightmares and playbacks of negative memories and confortations of others. I get times that someone would come after me and hurt me . I don't like confortation but sticking up for myself sometimes is draining. This sucks So much I don't want to keep thinking that this one individual would hurt me and over and over again keep murdering me . It gets in the way of my sleep and my everyday life or routine. This gets really bad!!! It has been on individual for about weeks and months. I'm just get really scared and terrified because I don't want these thoughts. But they keep coming and I want to live but it replays of me getting murdered or dying from this individual. I just hope things get better.
Yes, this sounds super stressful, and scary, I totally understand what you're saying! It can be very difficult to get certain thoughts out of your mind, they can keep going around and around in our minds, as that's the way our heads work, they create loops like a video, and we eventually have to train our minds our of it... It's our mind's way of trying to figure things out, or find something familiar to cling to (ie; our ancient survival depended on recognizing threats and being able to react quickly)...I'm thinking a really good thing you could do is look up help online, ie: see if there are any support groups in your area, or free counsellors, even a Dr. can be really good to talk to...Also look up phone or texting support lines...Look for all the support you can, as it seems you're going through a very rough and scary time...Another thing you can do, is try to do all the fun things you can that you enjoy, don't watch anything scary or play any scary games, they can affect the brain and make it worried and looking for bad scenarios in life to protect you from, ie; hyper-vigilance, and also your brain will feel sadder and more unhappy in general...The fun things for everyone are different, but can be cafes, friends, graphic novels, tv, movies, hot baths or showers, running, walking or any type of exercise at all, art, music, really absolutely anything that makes you feel happy or more relaxed is the goal...Getting your mind to relax and feel a bit safer is the goal...All the best and I'm rooting for you in a big way, you can do it!!
Thank You