Feels like losing time
I feel like it's impossible to plan life. Or at least that life would follow the plans you made.
I was so eager to finish my hotel management studies and to work full time for a year to save up and then going abroad with that job that I really like doing. And then the time arrived and suddenly Corona was a thing.
I've been feeling so overwhelmed and frustrated with the fact that I'm now basically wasting my time being stuck in the same place, not feeling as if I'm moving forward. I feel like I didn't achieve anything. One year of being a full time worker and sometimes I feel like I'm at the same level and I've been when I just finished my study. I feel like I don't grow. Life is just there and it's happening and I see it but nothing happens. Being in the hotel business in a time where you cannot travel and business people do zoom meeting at home I feel useless. I've always wanted to work abroad. That is and always has been my dream and hotels abroad don't hire at the moment - of course. They don't or barely even hire here in my own country. And i don't just want to do anything but the guest relation and front office i love.
I know I'm not the only one feeling like this. Living day to day not knowing what to do or when to do what. Trying to use all this time as efficent as possible feels overwhelming, There is always a new language i could learn or lear how to organize better or deciding to do an additional study or generally doing everything.
But all this for something that isn't something that we can plan. What if wasn't a pandemic but another war or a natural disaster or another life threathing disease.
What if, and I do kind of believe that, I'm still stuck here in a year or even more what will it do to me. Why is it that I, who wants to leave so bad, didn't leave yet. Why is it that all that I'm trying doesn't work out and how do I get out of this. Why do we make plans when anything at anytime it might be worthless
@dreamingworlds hi I'm sorry your goals and aspirations have been put on hold as I know it must be really frustrating. It must of meant a lot to and your future. I see you can't live without this and right now you shouldn't have to.
I know these are hard times. It's difficult at the moment to know where anyone or anythings going to be and it's difficult to not know where we can find out what might with clarity.
Every country around world is all experiencing the knock on effects. Everyone has had to stop there plans. I know it's don't feel like everyone has as you so thinking about you what you need still like nothing has changed just your dreams.
I know it's easy to say everything will be alright we have to carry on. We all in this together but the thing is we all are. Life is for living but life doesn't go the way we want it. There's good and bad. Nothing like this was on the cards. No one knew this was coming. We have to look behind the drama what's unfolded in this and see what it is really is.
You need to remember, you don't know how long this is gonna go on for. The idea of the future looks impossible. No one knows where they are or what to do. You are someone in a really difficult situation you don't know yourself where your at but one thing you got control on is how you deal with what's going on. Not the world not other people's lives.
I would i courage helping others volunteering your time. Doing something different to what you are. Just helping those living near you. Someone who could do with help or have a chat with. Normal things we all don't stop and do when our life is busy
I think it's the right time now xmas is coming we all do this and stop about thinking ourselves and the world but thinking about wat really matters. Not xmas, not bucket lists, not our jobs or careers.
Not buying a new home or getting married but what we shouldnt take for granted and who we need to be there for and what to do in crisis like this cuz we all maybe different but we're all actually the same on paper and inside us.
Right now don't think about what or what ifs. We don't wanna live in a place we're we regret or didn't take chances. There is always possibility what the chances are what could of been but our lives don't fall how we want them and doing things differently will just make us not want to take risks and live in a life of remorse so don't and to always look after yourself and know your so important and no one has forgotten about you and if you feel alone then you got us cuz your here with us
@TreaureSeekers3 Thank you so much for your words. I will try that and search for ways to give back to people in need. People who actually need help.
@dreamingworlds I understand your feelings 9f why plan if the impossible to plan for comes up.
This to will pass and I feel if we dont plan then we may not move in the direction we want.
So maybe see this as a temporary pause and then you can accelerate to your working goals in your industry. You can do this, hang in there.