Help. Please.

I feel scared, confused, depressed, and alone constantly. There are days and periods in time when I'm okay but all these emotions keep coming back constantly. I really don't know where this is all really coming from? I really don't know what's really wrong with me? I really don't know what happened to me? One moment my life is consistenly going somewhere, feeling accompanied by familiar people and now I've been unemployed and afraid to literally work my days away with the bachelor's degree I took, on some strange bosses and fellow employees I might not get along with because I feel terrified at my would-be work, at them. I can't stop imagining that they're going to be mad at me for being lame, sucking at what I do.

I feel left behind, my sisters and college friends have already years of experience in working which makes me feel more alone hunting a job, going through the whole process of adjusting with work and new people who are already experienced at what they do. And all of a sudden, I don't like my bachelor's degree anymore, heck, I even failed the board exam of it. It's like I lost the will to learn new things because of fear of working and being with professional working people.

I had a work experience but I didn't last for more than a month because of all these reasons.

I applied to only one job, so far, nearby the house (this time because apparently working makes me feel so homesick) and now I'm just waiting here in my bedroom like an idiot, for them to call me back whilst feeling remorse for being financially burden to my siblings when I should be helping them pay the bills in the house.

I can't tell to anyone over here at where I am what I've been going through because I'm too ashamed and they all have stable jobs to understand. I haven't had friends since I reviewed for board exam, which is a real shame because I failed it.

Anyway, I'm hoping there are available listeners out there. I really need one.