How can I break the cycle

My name is Imam, after my father passed away last month and few of my relative following . I exprience something not normal and keep happening like everyday. Now i find out its anxiety and when really i cant control,,, it become panic attack.

Its alway started with bad thought like negativity, grieving, remembering and everything turn to fear like super super fear. When it happen i feel really hard to breath, i cant control my body, i feel cold like my body cold, my chest really hurt with my heart beat really fast, sometime i wanna throw up because i feel someting in my throat that make me uncomfortable.

I go to the doctor, and he said im got bronchitis and some depression happening. He gave me some medicine. At first i feel like im gonna die, because when the panic happen im really on the low moment of my life.

But every day the anxiety and sometimes panic attack happen to me. Its ruin my life. I feel terrified, afraid everyday and hope someone can lift me up and make everything okay like my father does when he was alive. I feel so alone and nobody seem to care. Even my grandma, and my mother sick of me, because they mad to me when the anxiety panic happen, like they really exhausting take care of me. And that make me even more depressed. And the worst thing is, every job aplication that i send to gave me feed back when im sick physic and mental.

I wanna live my life like im used to, be healthy. But with anxiety panic keep happen, i dont know what to do.