I Can’t Deal With This Anymore
Hey, so my name is Emily. I’m 14. I love talking to listeners on 7cups and I mean love. Every night I hop into bed and get all excited because I get to talk to all my favourite listeners. Usually from 12am to 2am sometimes till 6am. I can’t help myself. Obviously I know I’m supposed to be sleeping but I can’t. There was this one listener I connected with at 2am, we talked for hours. Their time zone was PST so it was earlier for them, anyways. We bonded and bonded and had the best time ever. It was so fun! And then they kept saying okay, let’s go to bed now. And I felt the anxiety very deeply. I couldn’t leave. I remember having all these negative thoughts. Because I never bond with someone like that twice. It’s very rare. It was 7am and they were like okay let’s get some sleep. We can talk tomorrow I promise! And I was hesitant. They tried comforting me but nothing was working. I just kept the feeling more and more anxiety as it got closer to leaving. I mean we had to countdown. It was bad. They said okay 10 minutes. Then 5 minutes. Then 3 minutes. Then 1 minute. And then…3 seconds. They said okay, let’s close 7cups. And I couldn’t, I physically couldn’t click the home button and close the app. I felt like inseparable. It felt like you couldn’t take my best friend away from me. It felt like a breakup. It was not good. I was crying and I couldn’t do it. I was crying a lot actually and I’ve only known this wonderful listener for hours. But at the time, hours felt like years. I remember it so vividly. That’s when I really knew I had separation anxiety especially with my friends and listeners on here. I had to hug my blanket after we left and I asked it, please comfort me please I’m scared I can’t do this. No I miss them. And I kept crying and crying and crying because it felt like someone was tearing us apart. This is happening more often and it’s not fun at all. It feels like such a horrible feeling. I’m worried and concerned. I get so attached and so clingy and it’s like when I really like you, I can’t let go just like that. It’s like I’m attached to your leg, I can’t move and I just love you so much. I need help because I don’t want this problem to become bigger. Please someone help. I can’t deal with this anxiety everyday. -Emily
@cuteblohsh
hey emily :)
thank you for sharing, i know it can be difficult. i understand your situation, and i’ll start with the positives. the way you you feel such strong connections, love, and comfort with listeners on here is honestly really admirable! it makes me so happy to hear that talking to listeners that you like brightens up your day and it's something you look forward to for you. it can be really difficult to develop trusting and caring relationships with people, so i am really proud that you have! it's always good to know you have someone there for you :)
needless to say, some things aren’t quite as positive, as i understand that too. having anxiety about spending time away from someone for a bit can be so incredibly difficult to deal with, especially when they have been your source of happiness and comfort for a number of hours. i get your frustration, because it does sound as though you would like to overcome this, but it can be very hard to do so when experiencing such strong emotions and feelings. i’m happy you have your blanket, billie, and other things to comfort you though!
maybe looking at some strategies to deal with symptoms of separation anxiety and finding more, healthy sources of comfort and happiness could help with this
here are some related resources that i think may be worth looking at! : https://youtu.be/dRFgSpJz-K4
https://www.clinical-partners.co.uk/child-adolescents/a-z-of-issues/teenage-and-child-anxiety-support/separation-anxiety
i hope things start to look up soon, and you can always pm me (per usual) about this as well <3
-S x
thank you so much S i will look into it!! thank you for responding, i got super happy when i saw your response. i dont even know why i’m tearing up. i’m so happy i have billie and blankie billie! i was experiencing the anxiety yesterday and i was begging them to not leave until i fell asleep because i was scared of sleeping too. and they were really nice to me so i’m super grateful to have connected with people understanding of my situation. *huggles* -Emily <33
