I Feel Useless
I cant do anything alone, my anxiety wont permit it. I doubt myself constantly about what I can or cannot do. My brain is messed up from so much anxiety and from my medication. I cant add or subtract in my head anymore I feel like my IQ has dropped many points. I even fear that I wont know how to calculate dhow much time to be at the airport. I feel useless. I barely have a job because I cant manage anything stressful. I also have difficulty retaining information... I cant fully learn stuff and I cant speak well too. I have so much anxiety that I cant fully explain myself or even tell a story. I cant really articulate or be eloquent. And I often feel this terrible sensation in the pit of my stomach. It
My heart goes out to you, know that you are not alone. Your words mimic my situation very closely. I don't have an answer or a cure, maybe together we can figure something out. There are likely many, especially on this site that feel the same way. Keep your chin up, small steps. One thing I do is make my bed every morning, someone wise said to do this because it starts you on the path do accomplishing things that day. Feels weird to make a hotel bed but I have. maybe it makes a cleaning lady smile.