I can’t sleep
Hi everyone. First, I want to thank you for taking the time to read this. It’s almost 5 am and I can’t sleep, so I thought maybe writing how I’m feeling out would help. I have a lot running through my head. First, I’m waiting to hear if I got into grad school and I’ll hear next Wednesday. I’m so scared because this is the third time I’ve applied and I have good thoughts, but I’m still so nervous and it’s so hard not to get into my head. I always get into a weird mood during the last week of waiting and I just want it to be over. But at the same time I don’t because ignorance is bliss. I’m starting a new job on Monday and I’m excited, but scared. I’ll be working in a school, but I live in America. I’m assuming you can put two and two together and tell why I’m nervous. I’m scared. I can’t let them win by not living my life, but everyday there’s a new story. I’m scared. I’m so overwhelmed and I just want to lay in bed forever.
@intellectualBeach6035 You're going through a lot of emotions right now, and it's understandable to feel nervous about waiting to hear from grad school and starting a new job, especially considering the current climate in America. It's okay to feel overwhelmed and scared. Remember to take care of yourself and prioritize self-care during this time. Try to focus on what you can control and take things one step at a time. Reach out to supportive friends or family members for comfort and support. You're not alone, and remember that you're capable of handling whatever comes your way.😊
Thank you so much 🩵
@intellectualBeach6035 Thank you for your sharing. I sometimes can't sleep either. I even have different things need me to worry about per day. I always worry about results of something. Maybe try to not force ourselves to sleep? Hope you can get better.
@littleBarry177 Yeah I think forcing can stress us out more and cause us to push sleep farther away! They say distracting yourself for a bit is good and then trying again! Thank you!
@intellectualBeach6035 It sounds like you're going through a lot of changes, and it makes sense that there's some anxiety that is coming up. Grad school applications and starting a new job are significant changes. I think it's good that you felt the need to write it down here; sometimes our thoughts can be overwhelming if we let them stay in only our head.
I like to think that anxiety is a wave that we can try and let crash off of us without drowning us. Let yourself feel the anxiety, and let it wash off you. It's okay to be nervous and feel anxious, you got this.
@insidesunshine Thank you so much 💜
@intellectualBeach6035
It seems like you're navigating some hectic times, no wonder you're so anxious. Lacking sleep though would only make it harder to face whatever events the day brings. I personally struggle with insomnia when under stress, have you considered meditation? Check these resources from 7 Cups : https://www.7cups.com/exercises/mindfulness/
@ChocolateCupcake24 Thank you! Sometimes, I listen to calming songs when I am trying to sleep 😊
@intellectualBeach6035
I'm glad you shared your feelings here! It sounds like your anxiety is being driven by all of the new changes and uncertainties you are currently faced with, which is very understandable. It can be hard to focus on yourself or even on one topic when you have a lot going on at once. I hope that as things become more certain, you will be able to find the balance between your thoughts again.
@strawberrySound7617 I definitely have found getting my thoughts on paper can help me organize and work through my thoughts ❤️
@intellectualBeach6035
Sounds like there's so much going on in your life. I understand why you feel this way and I appreciate you sharing what's on your mind. Waiting for grad school acceptance can be a stressful experience, especially in the last week, and starting a new job can be both exciting and scary.
Just remember you've done your best, and you've got this. Take care! 🌸
@wildflower999 Thank you so so much! All we can do is our best 🌷
@intellectualBeach6035
I can imagine how difficult it must be for you, feeling all these emotions at once. Waiting to hear about grad school can be incredibly nerve-wracking, especially after applying multiple times. It's completely normal to feel scared and anxious during this waiting period. It sounds like the uncertainty is taking a toll on your mood, and you just want the wait to be over. Starting a new job is exciting, but I understand why you feel nervous, given the current situation in the country. It's important not to let fear hold you back from living your life, but it's completely understandable to feel overwhelmed and scared with the constantly changing news stories. It sounds like you need some rest and time to process everything. Take care of yourself, and remember that you're not alone in feeling this way. (Ghost Hugs, if you prefer them.)
@intellectualBeach6035
Hello, It seems you are going through a lot of emotions right now and that is very valid considering your circumstances. I see you are waiting to hear back from grad school acceptance, and on top of this a new job too! It is okay to feel nervous and overwhelmed even over all of these exciting new chapters in your life! I can 100% understand the anxiety about working in schools in America, but rather than focusing on the negatives regarding that - think of all the positives you can do! Making differences in children's lives :)
I know it all seems like a lot right now but soon you'll look back at all of this and realize you are able to overcome anything. You can always reach out to listeners here or even join in group chats, and talk to close friends and family about all of these worries as well. You are never alone!
I wish you all the luck in your new job and I'm crossing my fingers for you on that acceptance letter!