I daydream / fantasize a lot.

I post my listener`s posts on depression like every day, so it feels weird to write my personal stuffs in the same forum, because I have the same picture. Lets go to the point

I tend to fantasize a lot and beat myself up, on how I should be working and doing a lot of things, but at the end of the days I stay most of the day inside my house without going much, except from taking my dog for a walk, going to buy groseries, going to violin lessons, orchestra practice and choir lessons, so one day each, then going to my therapist, that is also once a day. The other time I finally managed to kind of starting to make some new friends, they are people who I know from my musical conservatory, well its a private conservatory and the level its pretty low, but still its a good way , an good way for myself to go outside and make friends, and not just think on what I should be doing and beting myself up on what is more practical to do, and what is not. I think gathering with this people really makes me happy, I mean they are not perfect, neither do I ... but its good to instead of staying most of the time in house to meet with friends, its sounds so weird for me lately to have friends, and a girlfriend would sound even more weird, cause I have been lonely and isolated most of my life. So I gather with this friends on the house of a new friend, and she lives like one block from my house, and most of the people who come to this convervatory live very close from my house. So we talked a lot , and they ate pizza and empanadas, and drank beer, I just drink water cause my diet. I put a lot of weight like 6 kilos of fat in the last 4-5 months.