I feel like everyone hates me

i don’t know how to explain but whatever i do i feel like people hate me. I can’t communicate well thinking like this. But i cant help it. I feel like people would judge me so i can decide what to do. I hate this kind of mindset. Like i always feel so tense talking to people in real life. I feel i have social anxiety, I can’t talk properly with other people. These stuffs make me hate myself. I don’t know how to explain these feeling to my irls. I’m ashame too. :(((