I just freak out.

There was a guy talking to me on the street, telling me excuse me several times, I keep ignoring him. Yet I was so scared, I dont want to be scared of going out again, and remind indoors. I always had been super scared of safety when I go outside. Also I think I kinda stay on my thoughts most of the time, cause being present in the moment for me its really scary. I tend to work like a computer pretty much, yet, the more I force myself to advance and grow the more hurt I get. Today was a great day, I think my memory will start to fade away to erase all the bad memory... So I am writting this memories to share them in here, hoping for others to read them, I have so many ups and downs.

I think now I am becoming a bit paranoiac.