Introducing myself
Im an 18 year old female and I just recently graduated high school. I grew up with divorced parents who I spent the years getting thrown back and forth between. In 2017, my junior year, my dad turned on me and lost custody of me. My step mom had mentally abused me for years, tore me down, did unspeakable things. I know she is the main source of my anxiety. It all started with a simple feeling of not being good enough or no one liked me and over the years it has turned into anxiety over everything. Every little thing. Everyday life seems so hard to endure because all I do is worry and think negative. I recently took up a job as a corrections officer and it has made my anxiety so much worse.. I cant go to work without thinking something bad will happen. I decided to download this app today, because I had the worst panic attack Ive ever experienced. I was driving to meet my boyfriend and it came out of no where. I had to stop and sit in a parking lot because I couldnt feel my face and I just felt like everything around me was collapsing. I prefer not to talk to anyone I know about this because Im afraid theyll think Im making this up, so I decided to come here and hear other peoples stories. Thank you for reading!
Hello @liliair3
I'm sorry to hear your parents have put you through so much hurt and abuse, my heart goes out to you ❤️
My anxiety mainly stems from childhood trauma, but I very much get worrying about every little thing and having a really hard time holding down a job. I've had my fair share of panic attacks around the same age as you did, back when I was in my final years of school. It was one of the most difficult experiences of my life, and I need to let you know how incredibly strong you are for keeping on fighting.
Living with anxiety and panic attacks is incredibly difficult and exhausting, and you did the right thing by deciding to join us here and by sharing your thoughts and feelings with us.
You're deserve having supportive people to help you through all of this. Please keep reaching out and take a lot of time to take care of yourself.
Best of luck to you 🍀 💕
