Is this really what I deserve?

Lately, my stressing disorder is becoming worse. Maybe because of the quarantine, my toxic relationship, or the fact that Im jobless for so long. I can't eat normally and loosing weight. My partner always says that he doesn't want me, or that he can't stand me and my depression, since I cry often. But hey, I'm laying down and wonder, Is that, what I truly deserve? I never harmed anyone and always cared, and always was there for everyone even if I had to put myself aside. So I guess, thats why I feel worthless. Because I left myself aside to satisfy others. Anxiety became worse since.