I want to scream and die

Jobs over the last ten years have been a nightmare. I've been selfless but irresponsible and now am in bankruptcy being sued by my credit union because they think I shouldn't have used the credit card a month before filing for bankruptcy, but I didn't have enough money for food. My current job pays very well, but the drive is a nightmare, the people I deal with are a nightmare, and I don't have a designated desk to work at in one location. My boss is an old friend but has developed a second face and a warmonger attitude. I don't want to be here. I want to quit and forget I ever started working here. However, I can't because then I'd have no job, and I'd lose shelter and not eat. We live in an evil world among evil people, and God has abandoned us.