Love and Other Drugs

So uhh hi. I'm new to this website and to this group. I joined mainly because I'm too much of a coward to call my therapist and my mind has been pretty jumbled. I'm hoping that this will help clear it. So the most recent thing on my mind is that I watched that new show Euphoria and saw way too many parallels between the main character and myself and its forced me to think about all the things I wanted to forget and its really stressing me out. I'm also in love with my best friend and I don't know what to do about it. She and I are both bisexual and our friendship is one that is really flirty and open and I always encourage her to shoot her shot with other people but then during pride week we went to the club together and she and I kissed. We were both very drunk when we did it though and I told her that I blacked out but I actually didn't and we decided that we would forget about it. I can't forget about it though, and every time we hang out now I think about it and I am so nervous and stressed about it. I really need someone to tell me what to do in this situation because anytime I think about it I want to rip my hair out.