My life is slowly crumbling
My boyfriend and I used to be really close he used to be my biggest support (we do long distance) over the past month he has been seemingly forgetting about me and he’s always apologizing for not texting me back or he forgot about something. It’s driving me crazy because my mental state has been deteriorating because of this and I should end things with him but I can’t. We’ve been together for two years and I feel like if I end things it was just a waste of time. (We started to get more physically involved than he would like so he asked if we could restart, I was fine with that. But he completely quit calling me, he rarely texts me, and I just feel so lost)
To add to that my church is experiencing a split. And I’m losing family and friends and it hurts so so much. Everyone expects me to chose and I don’t want to.
I feel like I don’t have friends that actually care about me. I feel so stuck in the dark: I feel like all my troubles are for nothing. I just want to cry all the time. I try go to sleep early, but I stay up super late, and sleep in very late. Last night I only slept for 45 minutes and I still can’t sleep.
so yeah that’s how I’m feeling at the moment.
If he is not giving you time then you are correct at your place. Breaking up takes a lot of courage but if you can do so then it is the best thing you can do in that relationship because after reading it i dont really think its worth it. As it is also effecting your mental health.
For you, the first thing of concern should be you. So love yourself first and dont let it effect you like this.
Choosing between people is a really tough decision. You dont need to do so either. Explain your point of view that if you love everyone then you cannot choose between like this because it is tough and heart breaking. Then let them decide.
Every such tension is bottling up in you and creating a huge block. And now physically affecting you. Tour sleeping schedule is distributed which is a sign that your body is not able to function properly because of these issues.
Let it all out, tell them, dont let them bottle up and effect you.
Dont punish yourself!
I wish i could do something to help❤️
Thankyou so much for your words. It means so much to be able to hear another opinion and it gives me hope that I am not going crazy with my thinking. Seriously so helpful because it is so hard for me to always remember to look out for myself.
I am happy you feel better.
Always think about yourself first.
I would love to hear from you🤗