Over and Over again
I lost my childhood friend last month. She was my Day one and as still as it may sound, I never thought she could die. But she did die and ever since it happened, I haven't cried or mourned or anything..I keep pushing it away. I can't even look through my gallery because I am not ready to come to terms with anything. To make matters worse, I have been having major anxiety everytime someone close to me falls ill because my childhood friend was ill before she died. I can't help but be afraid that the may die too. I really cannot lose anyone again.
Also, I ran into a man who made my life *** for most part of last year. I nearly passed out when we ran into each other. Now he is demanding to see me. When I saw his message, I had a panic attack. I'm just mentally tired at this point...
@AGirlWithAWeirdName I'm so sorry for your loss, and everything you're going through. TBH it sounds like you are dealing with a massive amount of trauma right now and the best thing you can do is take as best care of yourself as you can. Don't pressure yourself to do anything but get through the day one moment at a time.