Panic and Burn Out

I started this post describing what is happening, and then cleared it all, realizing that a long, drawn out story means nothing.

I am tired of getting everyone else's negativity and stress dumped on me. I don't have anywhere to go. I don't have anyone I can talk to. (Okay, I have 7Cups, which I am grateful for. It has helped a lot.) I get everyone's baggage dumped on me and I don't like it. I hate it.

I need my house to be a safe haven from stress, anger, hate, nastiness, tension. I need this to be the one place that can be a shield from anything bad that is happening. I try to make it that way. One tiny dot on the planet for peace to reign. But I just can't get the rest of the household to go along with it, or understand why it is important to me and my health and well-being.

Why are so many people mired in anger and negativity? What good does it do? Why live every day in misery? Why make more misery than life naturally provides?

Anyway, I'm burned out. I got stuck into a bad mindset this morning and threw myself into a panic attack. I hate that. I feel like I have to start all over again to get back to the place I was just a few days ago, where things were better.