Rough Day Check In

Symptoms

1... I Dnt think like I used to I Dnt think happy thoughts that makes me happy anymore

2.. I dnt enjoy conversation like I used too

I dnt enjoy music anymore

I feel dumb

I question everything I question how I talk I question even my thoughts

Am scared to think.

Always thinking about my past mistakes

When ever am thinking a voice in my head questions every words I used in thinking

I cant think like I used to do am scared talking am scared listening to music

My mind is trying to make me feel as if things I know before I Dnt know them anymore

It makes me feel as if am going dumb

Trying to change the meaning of things in my head..

Combatting with me with the meaning of things that I know before

14.. if u say something in another language I will understand and interpret it to my self I will not b satisfied with the explanation

15.. the voices makes me doubt words make feel as if I dnt understand the words

The voice is trying to make me dumb

The voice will question my thoughts

The voice is trying to make me misbehave but the effort I put in correcting my self brings a lot of pains it look as if am fighting something that doesnt want me to behave normal

The voice is trying to play with my understanding

It looks as if my believe and understanding are going down the spiral..

The words am saying sound dumb and new to me I hate talking and I hate talking to people because I feel dumb

I put extra ordinary energy understand simple things

Feeling as if am going dumb

It looks as if am not understanding what am thinking

25...I don't understand what I'm saying as I say it.

I have a really hard time communicating because when I speak, I find that the I am detached from the words I say. In other words, I don't understand what I'm saying, even though I am technically speaking. This makes it so difficult to speak more than one sentence, because after one, I'm already lost. Anyone know what this could be?

I dnt understand what I am saying as am saying it I feel dumb to my own words

My thoughts is killing me

For example if someone is talking to me and the person used a word goat for example something in my head will ask me what is d meaning of goat once I explained that goat is an animal something else will ask me what is the meaning of animal once I explain an Animal is a living thing that feed on organic matter something else will ask me what is the meaning or organic matters round round going round circles..

I have all this symptoms what is wrong With me what is d solution

@amusingChestnut1460

I know how you feel. I feel disconnected at times and its hard to process that Im here and Im doing things. Keep fighting, and dont let it get to you!

So this is how my day started.

I am out of a job because I'm constantly in and out of work because of my issues. My mom sent me a small check for food and I needed to cash the check.

For probably the third time THIS MONTH ALONE the last time I used my car I left my lights on, so my car battery died. Reiterating, for about the third time this month.

In my frustration, I accidentally locked my car keys in my car. And I had locked the house, so I couldn't get back in. Thankfully, my roommate was at a vet appointment for his elderly cat, but I still had to wait outside for probably a good hour and a half in fairly cold temperatures without a sweater (I didn't think to wear one, because it was literally just going to be like a 10 minute trip total).

Some days I just want to give up. I'm so over life right now.

Anyone can help? I'm in the middle of a break and we work together. My mind is cleaner when he's not around. Then when he is around I have major anxiety and my body takes on the emotional roller coaster I'm going thru. I know what's best for me. But how do I get thru this part of the cycle ?