School? Anxiety?
I absolutely hate school I love learning I just cant handle the people whether its because I'm scared or they make me angry. I've always had problems being in public or taking to people even family but it was just always said that I was shy but now since it's become a problem they say to get over it and that I cant live like this. People genuinely terrify me for one reason or another and I have no idea whether I can get better or not. Schools always been a problem I do great with my grades but I worry way too much like when a teacher is calling on people I feel sick and hope they don't call on me and that takes up so much of my energy and I cant focus on my work because I'm worried they'll call on me or make me go to the board. Itd be better if I didnt have to talk at school itd make life so much less stressful than it is. But instead its expected of me I had a teacher that made us do a speech and she said that she knows some of us dont like talking but "itll be fine we just have to get up there and get it over with" which is what I do but I constantly feel sick and shaking days before i even have to do it because I'm worried and scared and I dont even know what I'm scared of
@CrimsonRainSoughtFlower, yes , it is not easy talking to people who you do not share common interest with. Giving a speech infront of a group f people can be both scary and challenging . Even adults struggle to give a speech. It is actually wonderful that you went ahead and did that even if you were uncomfortable or reluctant. You challenged yourself and tried it. Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for doing that. It does not matter how well you did it or what others thought of you or expected out of you.
Maybe ask your teacher if you can present your speech one on ene with her, that way you won't have to do it in front of everyone
@CrimsonRainSoughtFlower I also have this kind of problem, I hate school and it's not easy after getting a speech or gettting to recite I also feel so drained or nauseous whenevr I do it and finished it, I do this thing like treating myself and say comforting words, or giving myself the food I always wanted and do something I want. And yeah it might be draining but if I dont do it, well in my case I feel worse