This is starting to annoy me.
I have constant thoughts of my spouse cheating or someone trying to get with them. They are super intrusive, and I trust them with all my heart. It just feels like it will never go away. Not to mention the panic attacks and shutdowns.
@DarthDaimon
Thank you for sharing. I can completely see why this is disturbing to you. It sounds as if you're in a good place to make progress - you're aware of your thoughts and you're aware that you trust your spouse. Those are good steps. The hard part is probably identifying why you have these fears, if it is something about the past, something that happened to you in the past, or if it is something about your spouse. Do you feel this way about other in your life? Have you felt this way before in your life? Is it new, or long lasting? There are probably other similar questions that you can ask, but it seems that you are entirely ready to explore these things. I think you're also coming from a good loving place where you can say to your spouse "I have these feelings but I know with all my heart and mind that I have nothing to fear. Will you help me to understand myself so that I can learn to move past them?"
You're in a good place, and you have a good beginning. I believe in you.
Thank you for sharing here.
