Understaing that i was being a rude to others and myself is the worst feeling ever
Recently my girl broke up � with me. now i understand how much a douche i was being to her. some time for my parensts and my sister. to be honest i never had a proper job. family have some money but i feel something was off when spending their money. if i can do my own thing maybe i will be a better person. "i'm a 29 years old loser" this is my self talk.
i'm not going to apoligize from my girl because i did it more than 25 times and broke that peomise. so i wil try to � do something with 200 days and then apologize and walk away. i feel bad about the pain i caused.
i set up a 200 days ahead of plan but with my my procrastination it seems like working.
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my plan is to do meditations about 200 days
Be very good at adobe � illustrator
Forgive myself and become better man
Read 10 � good books about smotional healing, personality devolopemnet, being mature etc
have lot's in my mind and i'm feeling really bad
Edited by Asher, 6/21/21
@asankablack I'm sorry that you are feeling bad now but seeing that you have a plan on how to improve yourself is a great first step. I hope that you are able to stick to it and you grow into a more mature person. :)
