World on my shoulders.

Whats up, as the title suggest the weight of the world feels on my shoulders. I spend a quarter of my life worrying about what could be, what can be and what it is but I cant make it stop. Sat in bed without a will to do anything is heartbreaking. I have lost my potential and my drive since I left school going on 4 years ago. I havent developed as a person, I struggle in social situations, I cant hold a conversation in person or over text unless Ive been drinking. I feel pathetic, a waste of a man and a let down to my parents and those around me. I put in so much at work as its my dads buisness which hes passionate about. Were short staffed and I feel responsible. Im not happy at work but seeing my dad in pain, stress and discomfort crippled me inside. All my friends are slowly moving away and my social life is dissappearing. The loneliness hurts sometimes but Im so used to it that I drive people away. Im not in demand for the ladies and Im not a typical lads lad which sometimes I wish i was just to save the hassle. Im not looking for sympathy, I just wanted to vent and if this helps anyone in terms of being relatable then my day might just have been justifiable. Thanks, ya boi Dirt