always feeling less than
so today was kinda rough. i had a falling out with my mom who is my only parental figure in life about a bunch of things.
1.i have trouble talking to her about everything going on inside my head, i’m afraid that she going to hate me if i tell her.
2.i’m the oldest of three siblings to all the babysitting, most of the cleaning, A LOT of responsibility is put on me for when she isn’t home, and frankly i’m happy to help in any way i can, just not 24/7, constantly running behind them cleaning up their messes, helping with homework, getting on them for idk some stupid thing they did to the animals or around the house, i then have them come at me for going at them cuz i’m being pulled in so many directions. i’m 13 and i have my own school stuff going on, clubs i’m in. i’m legit going into highschool next year and not just any regular one, ohhh nooo it’s one of those early collage things, the teachers don’t pull you aside to help you if you can’t keep up that’s on you.
3.recently i found out she’s been sleeping with my friends dad and i’m the only one that knows. this friend has her own problems she dealing with ( i’m pretty sure she has depression) and my mom has had this going on for about two years now, she’s had a past with men, abusive, passive aggressive, druggies, alcoholics, you name it. she’s just got divorced and needed to get a restraining order against the dude, and let’s say it didn’t go so well. i had to change schools but back to the point she said she was done with the male species for the rest of her life and low and behold she wasn’t, don’t get me wrong i love her to death but MY GOD. ITS MY FRIENDS DAD!!!! how am i supposed to handle that. and i just broke down tonight told her how i was feeling about her seeing thins dude, SHES CURRENTLY AT HIS HOUSE WHILE HES DRUNK LEAVING ME AND MY OITTLE SISTER HERE WHILE SHES OVER THERE ITS BEEN THREE HOURS ALREADY AND IDK WAYT TO DO she was supposed to be home 45 min ago.
Checking up on you. How did things go at the end? Did your mum come home soon after?
This sounds like you're being put into the adult position as a child. Being the eldest of your siblings and only at the age of 13! Taking on responsibilities and chores that a parent should be doing instead (or at least, do the majority of the things you've listed).
How far in age apart are you with your younger siblings? Is there any way to teach them how to take care of themselves, and picking up after their own messes?
Good for you in entering into early college! Maybe you can see if there are any available resources from that college that could help out your situation. As with your mum's complicated relationship with your friend's dad, there's really nothing you can do about it. If you feel that you and your siblings are at risk of any harm, maybe there is something that the Government can provide for families like yours. Or is there a relative that you can reach out to for help?~
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