ever changing anxiety landscape

Since the last time I posted, I have completely different problems. And quite a few of them are not mine specifically, but i still have to deal with them.

Human relationships are hard, aren't they? You can't account for what others are feeling. You can't make everyone like you all the time. You can't be perfect.

You also cant control how two important people in your life feel about each other.

I often befriend people who are not perfect humans. It's rather impossible not to. My partner is not a perfect person, but his flaws are ones that do not directly hurt anyone. ( he's messy, lol). we are working on it. I'm very proud of him. But it doesn't prevent tension in the house when things are missed.

anyway, we can't prevent things like sprained ankles, breakers going off, thieves breaking windows and stealing our stuff.

why do i still feel like i'm in trouble? ( not physical danger, i keep having to clarify. but like "authority figure is mad at me" trouble. )