i'm so scared
i've been really terrified these days and i always cry for no reason. i have no one to talk to. i feel terrible about myself. i've been going through this for so many years, but i have never took therapy. i'm too scared to ask my parents. i really can't do this. every time someone tells me to seek professional help i can only feel even more horrible, simply because i'm pitying my fate. i'm unable to afford it.
i wish suicide hotlines and helplines were easier to approach in my country. i can never get help and i'm most probably going to die suffering like this. it upsets me, truly. i wish someone could help me.
Sooemone olease help me im so scared i dong knwow what tk do, im so scared im scared someone hlep m please ellease
why sn't anyone answerring
Hey there @Hydrangea03 *hugs* (only if you are okay with virtual hugs, of course)
It is so nice to see you here! :)
I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much with anxiety. It can be really hard sometimes.
Asking for help is really a very big and indeed scary and hard thing, and it is okay if you are afraid. You know, coming here and writing this post is an awesome first step actually, I am proud of you for doing so!
This place has some resources and also some pretty great thread around in these forums which may help you until you feel comfortable asking for other source of help. Also, you could participate the daily check-ins as well! :)
As for asking for help: it is hard. There are some ways that may be helpful tho.
FIrst of all, you do not need to start by seeking professional help, that's really a big step and it needs time to build up the courage for doing so, and it is okay you can take your time.
Asking your parents can be maybe a good first step. Of course I can see that it is hard as well, and I can totally understand, I dread talking to people, especially problems like this as well, what may help you tho is journaling or just writing things down in general.
I mean, first thing is, writing or saying things out by itself can be helpful, also with that you will have something written and you can give that to whoever you feel comfortable with if and when you feel ready to do so without even saying a word, which can be very hard on the spot.
You can do it, I believe in you! 