lately i am having more panick attacks
this is quite worrysome for me, i dunno if its due to the fact that i am still isolated, or cause how i am not used to going outside, or the fact that i am begining to go out more and its quite scary, and also that i had a happy day after years of being numb and prisionaer of the computer, i had a day i felt something, a day i laughed a day i talk with someone on a chat with voice and it felt great, a day i went to the park and was able to feel the sun in my skin the grass on the park, to be more in touch with my emotions and not so much with just my thoughts inside my head, which is one of the things that made me go to a mental hospital in the past and part of me is still afraid of relapsing. i also managed to go to the gym, so i need to work on some kinda daily routine to be more outside of my house and more in contact with people.
Lately i am a bit paranoiac, i wont write more now,.
thanks for reading, i hope this is not very heavy.
@okeyyyy I am so glad that you have been able to go outside lately and have some good times-- that is a bigger step than some would believe. I understand being worried about the panic attacks- it makes sense to want to avoid them. When you are feeling different than you have for a while, the adjustment can be hard. If you are worried about things being too heavy, you can always put a trigger warning at the top of the post for anything specific that might upset people, but generally here honesty with how you are doing and just being real is encouraged
@snowylovegood thanks so much :) yay, this is so kind of you. today i saw my therapist, we had been on virtual sessions for around since the pandemic started, and i even increased the therapy sessions this week from 1 session to 2 session cause i was really needing them. So today i saw my therapist face to face in session and it was awesome. after i went to a meet up , a bar, it was so super hard to open up, but with the help of the group chat they managed to encouraged me to open up :)
thanks, i will keep on trying :) yay 😃❤️