lonely
i don't really know if this an anxiety thing, but im starting to realize that i've never really had a best friend. my close friends always have actual best friends that they're way closer to. when im out with people i feel like a third wheel. i dont know how to put this into words, im tired
And totally understand how you feel I feel like I have tons of friends but no one who's really close and I don't know whether it's me who doesn't allow them to get close or If I'm just naturally standoff fish that way it's weird because I want to have a close friend I want to develop a close relationship with a friend to be able to share things but at the same time I don't feel comfortable sharing things does that make sense And yes it is exhausting
i understand how you feel. it's the challenge of wanting a close friendship/relationship with someone when you're very emotionally closed off and you don't want to be vulnerable because people can take advantage of you or just not really respond to you, so you're left hanging after you try to be vulnerable
Yes this is so true Because you feel like if you're vulnerable with them they're going to take advantage of you like they could use it against you And sometimes you don't even know what they would use against you but because you've been burned in the past it's like you're just still guarded And it's hard to decide who you should trust and who you shouldn't
yeah, it's so lonely. it's honestly kind of hard watching people who have super tight one on one friendships. it feels really isolating. it usually makes me wonder if not everybody is meant to have close friendships/relationships. maybe that's only for special people. idk if i'm making any sense
@versatileOwl4907 Everyone without a doubt deserves a close friendship and even tho you might not have one right now, the right person will come into your life.
