making (new) friends

i'm starting to realize that i feel really deatched from one group of my friends. i have a few friends but i'm referring to 2 specific people who are each other's best friend/favourite person. i feel like a third wheel when i hang out with them, i think they're amazing and interesting people on their own but when they're together it feels like i'm dealing with 2 parts of a whole, rather than dealing with 2 individual people. i feel as though i cannot get close to them individually because they're so close to each other that if you want to get to know one of them, you have to know both of them. they spend a lot of their free time together (at least that's what it seems like to me) so if you want to hang out with one of them, it's always "oh yeah <other person> is coming too". it's like you just have to assume that they do most things as a unit and take them like that.

it's hard to hang out with 2 people and watch them constantly be their favourite person with each other and operate as one.

but the weird thing is that i'm no longer upset by it. i've realized that yes i'd like to have a 'person' but not in the sense that i spend all of my time with them and i only ever pursue new interests with them and people around us just assume that we're a package deal rather than being 2 seperate people. if i ever had a 'person' i'd never want to lose my individuality because i'm stuck to them like glue. i wouldn't want to be in a situation where me and somebody else are so attached at the hip that if one us wants to do something but the other doesn't then we just don't do it.

the idea of making new, stronger and better friendships feels good to me, or even just the idea of doing stuff that i want to do on my own. i shouldn't feel dread and anxiety every time they invite me to something.

if this was the wrong place to post this then i apologize in advance. i'm sorry this post is so long. has anyone else ever felt like this? (being a third wheel to a strong friendship, wanting to make new and better friends)