Anxiety
I can't feel relaxed or happy. I know i should be. But there is always something blocking me. All these thought running inside my head telling me that i could end up crazy or be a bad person. The fear of losing control of my life. I need to find what is happening inside my head. To be short i do and redo things until i finally do it in the "right way" i don't know why but if i don't do things exactly 4 or 6 or 10 times i feel bad. It can be really bad to show with people around that's why i ignore it but after i feel really bad. If it was just doing things many times i could live with it. But it has gone to far and sometimes i don't even know myself what the objectives are. And what i do is never good enough. Never done good enough. I'm even questioning what i write
Hi @mat1mul. Doubting yourself occasionally is alright cause it helps you to question yourself and put in more effort into the work or task you were doing. But constantly doubting yourself can be tiring, draining, upsetting and eat away yourself esteem. Feel free to message any listener here at 7 cups. We are here to listen to you.
@mat1mul sorry to hear that. This feeling must not comfortable. You can try to get professional help. You are not alone.
I'm the same, I thought it's good that I try to do stuff in the best shape, sometimes that's the case, but often it's just too much, even simple things like cleaning the dishes or doing laundry take me significantly more time than anyone else. As this makes me consistently trying to improve it also makes me always anxious, awkward and unsatisfied. Even this comment took more time than anyone would think because of this.
