Anxious
Lately I’ve been dealing with serious anxiety attacks …. Recently ended up in the ER never thought it would go that far …. I’m trying to nurse myself back to health but find it hard ….. it’s hard to because my parents are toxic …. They want to resume everything back to normal ….. But I’m trying to find myself I dont think they understand
Literally my first day back and they are telling me why I should do and I tell them nicely but the keep asking me the same question I answered 3mins ago …. I yell and when I do it freaks me out even more …. And when they react by saying “I was just asking. You a quesition” it’s like they don’t hear me the first hundred times and put the blame on me when I respond harshly after the hundred time
Am I being heard or do the just not care enough to respect my answer …. They think I’m still that 1 year old …. And it had greatly impacted my growth and development I feel like I have an attachment disorder ….. they don’t seee that all those painful years in the past greatly influenced my thinking processs