Can't talk
The love of my life wont believe I have social anxiety .. I never turn down a social event or a party true .. But I always have to be stonned to go .. I often forced myself to go .. At work I'm a mouse I never say a word people think I'm dumb and I just want to go and hide .. I k ow trying to make conversation is pointless either I'm not good at it or theres something wronf with who I'm talking to. . I hate saying something and getting 0 response in turn .. I listen to others but even what I habe to interject becomes wrong .. It doesnt help that I had no friends in school and was often laughed at or dismissed for how I felt and what I said .. Even when my face was beinf mopped with a janitors mop I was supposed to have empathy for what the other kid was going through .. Idk is tis social anxiety or jist my own stupidity and worthlessness??
Read about asperger syndrome
Yeah I'm too dumb for it to be aspburgers
#1 Forgive yourself
When we hold onto old resentments it turns into self hate.
#2 focus on you
Some people will not understand your illness. Just do what is necessary to keep yourself healthy.
You are not stupid and you are not worthless. Think about how you just shared your story to a bunch of total strangers, who can say anything they want about it. That's pretty brave. This may have already been told to you 100 times, but have more confidence in yourself. What you have to say matters and is important.