Not Tomorrow - please don’t come
I had an anxiety attack today. Again. I was physically fatigue, but still have to maintain so I will get through the day at work. When I got home, I was so drained my usual reading was not enjoyable. Everything seem to be a big effort. Now I’m in bed after my second job, not wanting to sleep but feeling it, wishing tomorrow won’t come. I am so anxious of what is to come and what could happen that I wanna run away. I don’t want to face the potential things that could happen tomorrow. I am dreading something that hasn’t even happen or guarantee to happen. I am so afraid I wish I was disabled so I don’t have to work. I wish I was so sick, I was bedridden enough to not go to work. It was wrong of me to have such thought because I know that isn’t what I want. My anxiety is crippling but I still have to walk up hill. I spent majority of my life trying to be brave. It doesn’t mean I get use to it. It just mean the more I try to repress my anxiety/depression, the more creative it gets in manifesting. So tomorrow don’t come, but the time keep ticking.
@Mdreaming101 Hi there, I am sorry you are feeling this. I know it's hard and it's understandable that you feel so exhausted from feeling this way at times.
We are here for you.
Just in case you haven't already come across this, I'll just leave this link here, there is some really great information help guides out there: https://www.7cups.com/anxiety-help/
Are there any things that you have tried before and had success with, to try and help calm your mind and thoughts a little bit? Have you tried any breathing exercises, listening to calming music, or meditations? Or do other things sometimes help, like a nice warm bath or shower? Or a quick walk?
I can totally understand and get it . Picking up self daily and forcing to be brave doesn't mean ,it's our second nature or we used to this . Its extremely daunting and draining to put in effort in this . There are days when we so tired to keep this cycle going . I so wish I could help you and myself out of this . Even though it feels so helpless and restless at the moment , we can remember God is there ,and it's just a matter of time . Things are going to come around in our favor , and till then hope is going to help us keep trying and walking towards it . And please don't forget inspite of our practical struggles , actual situations , or any other kind of compulsion , we can still try to be courageous and follow our heart .
