Nothing important I guess
Hello. I'm Kimberly and I've been around forums for a few weeks. I don't know if it's ok to post it here but... anyway.
There are too many things in my head. Bad memories that turn around and around and just don't disappear, and I try to focus on something else but I just can't. Lately it has been getting worse, any simple action like turning my cam on for class, receiving a delivery to my door or getting a wrong phone call affects me too much and makes me anxious. And I haven't been able to focus on my assignments, I already failed 2 and I'm giving up another one.
I don't know what's going on with me, I feel like I'm falling in a spiral and I don't know how to get out. Everything and everyone scares me, I turn violent and I say bad words.
I thought I was strong and I was getting through a difficult chapter in my life, but I am not and I feel like everything inside me is collapsing. It's getting harder and harder to smile when I feel empty inside.
I do not know what else to say. I guess I just wanted to vent.
I hope no one reads this post and if anyone does, I'm sorry, I hope I didn't bother you.
@Kimmkimm
I'm glad you're willing to recognize that you're struggling. I'm glad you shared this and no, i don't mind and i doubt anyone else here does. We're all here for each other, and you are no exception.
@ExhaustedPigeon055
I think I had a moment of weakness and I posted it, I shouldn't have done that. Thank you for your kind words.
@Kimmkimm
Hi Kimberley,
I feel the same way and have the same thoughts. Even just a unknown knock at my door can send my day into one of nothing but anxiety. I'm glad you posted this. Know that your not alone and talking about it does start to help.
@akay06
Akay
Thank you. I'm sorry you're feeling that way and I understand how a day can be so uneasy, with time flowing so slow and so fast at the same time.
I hope you believe in your own words: you're not alone.