I don't know if i will feel good again...

I don't know if i will feel better again... I'm so scared that the maladaptive daydreaming disorder cane back but i understand that it's just a feeling of fear or anxiety and everything is fine, but still... And I'm scared that i will nit feel ok again and the tense will be there forever and i will never be good again... This heat because of hit weather outside is making me feel tense and i feel like I'm going insane hah (I'm joking, but I still feel like trash).

I tried a lifehack that one person shared with me in previous post and i kinda liked it and it really helped me so thanks to that person, but still i feel like trash and tired... So... I don't know what to say or what to do or what to think so... I don't know... I started to talk to myself a lot because of tense and i think all of things that i do because of tense is just a protection mechanism, like, I'm so sensitive to heat not only physically but mentally, that my brain goes "well, let's go in YouTube and watch some videos that i don't need and talj to myself because the heat is really stressing me out and i will go insane if i won't do that" and i do what i do so... I don't know if i will feel ok again... Ir if i will feel better again... I'm scared...