Sensory processing/integration
Hey,
New to this subcom, but have been here a while (:
I believe this is probably the most suited place to post this, but I can't find any posts about it.
I have not been diagnosed, as although it is formally recognised, and I have had the assessment for it, they do not diagnose it... Yet!
I suspect I am on the autism spectrum, planning to get tested through camhs, as I am already with them for mental health, and this assessment is part of it. Apparently people can have the sensory issues without autism, but not autism without sensory struggles to some degree.
It feels so validating, knowing that they've said I am neurodiverse, and validated me, that it's okay to struggle more, that the world isn't designed for us, as such.
But then there's the sadness, anger, injustice, and whatever other emotions. That although there's ways of managing it, it won't go away. I feel alien. I'll never be like everyone else. Frustration that my ed was likely caused because I don't understand hunger/fullness.
My dad seems to have similar traits and the assessor agreed although didn't assess. He understands. But mum doesn't really. Feels like I'm expected to keep it silent, not even tell those around me, so they can help, feels like I should be embarrassed of it.
I keep being reminded that it's not a formal diagnosis. No, it's not. But the results were from a formal assessment. A qualified professional. And even I je results are caused by my other diagnosis, meares Irens syndrome, I'm still struggling. It still provides me with an explanation.
It is hard. Information overload to be honest. Feels a bit like having to relearn the world. Feels childish. Feels alien.
Sorry, needed to get this out.
@CalmCoral Not a problem.
I enjoyed reading this.
Thanks for sharing this.
@CalmCoral, thank you for sharing your feelings with us! All your feelings are very valid. With autism comes a wide range of emotions. Some days you may be mad and others possibly sad and everything in between. It is totally okay to be confused about how you feel too.
I think you are experiencing what a lot of people do - not wanting to be different. Over time though I've learned to embrace the difference though. We are all unique in our own ways and that's okay. Some of the most famous people in the world have/had Autism - Einstein, Charles Darwin, Bill Gates, and so many more! Each of us are our own person and that's what makes up this world. If we were all the same the world would be a boring place in my opinion!
@wonderfulRainbow817
I don't even know if I am on the autism spectrum though... The sensory stuff felt most relevant to post here though I guess.
I don't know if I agree... I'm proud of bei neurodiverse to be honest. I don't mind not fitting in. Well, to some extent I do, as I'm sure everyone does some days.
(When are you becoming ATL 😉😛)
Finding out and even being assessed will help you in the long run ....
you have an idea of why you feel differently and although you do not have to tell anyone if you are close to them you can share and it really smooths out some misunderstandings.
I have ran into a couple of people who are older and have issues that might fit into a diagnosis........It could have saved them a bit of grief in their inability to relate to others in relationships if they knew early.....
someone suggested a person we know seems to have some signs like that and when i approached different tactics to deal with him ( based on a hunch) it saved a lot of grief in the relationship.
@toughTiger6481
I think I'm scared of not being because my suspicions are high 😂 if I'm not, I shouldn't be struggling like this and will beat myself up, if you get what I mean?