Anybody struggling with Latuda and bad circumstances?

I’m struggling with keeping friends that I’m incredibly far away from, being forced to move with my parents cause I have no fucking money and have to watch out for my brother cause they’re verbally abusive and transphobic to him, having no method of transportation to get out of the house and now I have less than a month to prepare to be stuck in the car with these psychologically abusive motherfuckers for almost 2,000 miles of driving (36 hrs without stops). My psychiatrist switched me to Latuda to see if that would help with my irritability since the previous Abilify wasn’t and it was increasing slowly but now it has increased EXPONENTIALLY. I am in a constant state of hyper vigilance while being permanently in rage mode and have no way to express myself cause the therapist I went to is only available if you are a student at the university I went to and are on-campus… that I graduated from *checks watch* 2 weeks ago. I have no access to another therapist because I don’t have the money or space to meet with someone due to the fact that I have been looking and none of the therapists near me are taking new patients or accept my insurance (which also will not answer my calls regarding who WILL) and cause my dad is fucking NOSY and spends his time telling me how useless the psychiatrist is. At this moment in time he is one snide comment away from me completely going ballistic on him and going to jail XD I am tired and can’t do what I usually do to cope (smoke and drink) without being told I’m acting like a step-sibling I talk to not even ONCE A YEAR. I am attempting to get into journalling before I murk myself since all of the gods who exist in the world are doing a terrible fucking job XD If anyone has any suggestions regarding what I could to cope with this constant simmering rage contained inside of me, I will welcome them with open arms cause I’m 👌🏾 close to 1) stopping all my medications or 2) ceasing to exist. Sorry for the long post but I’m at my fucking limit. 🙂