Don't Know Where Else to Go
I joined 7 cups about a month ago, but haven't posted much. Having a rough night/morning. Traumatic event happened for me as a child around this time of the year. I've been all over the place just tonight. I'm so bleeping alone right now. I'm always alone. I'm out of a couple of my psych meds and can't get them until later in the week. I don't know what to do. I don't know if that's what's going on or if I'm just having a bad time.
I really don't have many people close in my life. I'm 38 and live with my mother; she and I are close, but she has her own problems. I can't tell her everything. I'm afraid of upsetting her. My sister's in another state. I love her, but she's not here. Have relatives around, but none I talk to. Lost touch with all but one friend, and can't say everything to even her. Have psychologist and psychiatrist, but it's almost 5 a.m. New Year's Day right now. What good are they?
I really wish I had an upswing. I'm trying to get there with OTCs and what few psych meds I have, but it's hard. I'm really just awake and alone. Sorry.
@spinsteraunt12 I'm so glad you have reached out to us! It's sounds like you're having a spectacularly bad time right now, and I wanted to let you know you are NOT alone. Not here. We are here for you!
There are a lot of things out of your control right now. Is there a way for you to try to focus on what you do have control over? There is a light at the end of the tunnel for your psych meds being available now, and the fact that it's no longer a holiday, so you can reach out to your psych professionals.
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