Doubt and Bipolar make it hard to make decisions
Overall, I think I’ve been pretty ok lately. I adopted a kitten and I got my very first full time job that is almost in my field of study. The only problem is that I loathe this job.
I like the coworkers, I like the kids I work with, but everything is disorganized and communication is practically non existent until there’s a desisted. I’ve been working there for a solid month and yesterday was the first day I actually did the work in the job description.
so I’ve got a new job lined up, I can start there next week. It’s not in my field but it’s still fulfilling work. They have comparable benefits but I will take a $650 pay cut (which is equivalent to my half of rent) but is absolutely still a living wage in my area.
I don’t want to stay at my job, but I’m still terrified that I’ll making some kind of dumb manic decision, and my parents think so. But my friends think I need out.
Im AWFUL at making decisions like this because I doubt myself both because of my upbringing AND my bipolar.
@OwlofAges same. I have a lot of issues within my family. An event is coming up on Saturday and I want to go. But my husband doesn't think I should. If I go, I risk my husband being upset. If I don't go, I risk my daughters being upset. Idk what to do.
I know my issues isn't as grand scale as yours is. Could you try to hold out for a job that is closer to your field and comparable pay? Idk just what you do or exactly how hard it is (mentally and/or physically) but I just wonder if maybe there IS something out there that would fall in your lap if you could hold out!
I could yes, it’s just that it wouldn’t be until next spring because I would be working at a school. And starting at a school in the middle of the year is nooooot fun. So it would be a long time waiting
