Flashbacks to my manic episodes

Happy Friday, and doing much better this morning.

I don't know if anyone else can relate, but during my last manic high late last spring, before being diagnosed with bipolar 2 and starting treatment, I was very flirty and sending sexual signals outside of my marriage with basically any women that would pick up the signal. I also ended up having arguments with my wife and leaving for a hotel room. I would go out and meet random women at bars and have a good time drinking and dancing and flirting. Nothing happened beyond the bar, but it was beyond anything I had done to-date in a manic high.

Fast forward to last night, I had to work late and I was tired from the day. On my way home, one of the women that I used to hang out with texted and asked what I was doing and invited me to come to a restaurant with her and her girl friends. It immediately brought back all the memories from last spring and they were troubling to relive. I guess this is a trigger.

I was able to politely decline and that felt good, but the whole episode was a little exhausting.

Thank you for listening! It feels good to write this out.