I feel totally alone and so down
The last few days my mood has dropped right down I’m on mood stabilisers (Lamotrigine for bipolar) and although it’s improved a lot since starting them in November 2020 I still have mood changes but they are not as intense and scary as they were previously, is it normal to still experience mood shifts? I just feel really down and can’t stop crying, I feel like I’m totally on my own and have no support sometimes, I have no family since my mam committed suicide 16 years ago and everyone in the family drifted apart. I feel like I’m going to explode sometimes keeping everything to myself, and mental health services are taking too long to allocate me a new cpn as the last one kept cancelling my appts which wasn’t helping me. My partner doesn’t talk much so I just feel so alone dealing with everything 😢
oh darling im sorry for these things happened w you im here if u wanna talk
Thank you I just don’t know who to turn to sometimes, I try talking to my partner but he’s not much good with mental health and he’s a quiet person so I often struggle with things on my own which is really hard at times
@Donna2180...I'm so sorry you feel so sad, and the loss of your mum it's so rough this life huh , I get it, I feel similar, although I'm diagnosed CPTSD MDD anxiety.. my moods are up and down too..I feel like I've been crying for 3years straight..I'm on meds but some days I'm just beyond help....I have a spouse but he's not too helpful, he does his best but he's not a therapist. I do see a therapist. Some days are just difficult, I feel soooo alone alot, ..it's difficult to find support, some ppl just can't handle my story, sometimes I can't handle my story ,its pretty ugly. My support is small, therapist, a sister, 7 cups...that's about it. I have other ppl in my life but they don't know my stuff. I don't want ppl to look at me differently...I'm around here alot looking for support and I'm happy to give some support sharing ....I hope my post helps in some small way. I'm praying for your healing as well as my own. 💜ABB
Thank you I’m glad other people feel similar, it’s so confusing bipolar when your on mood stabilisers, before I was on them I would fly into a rage over anything, argumentative, saying nasty awful things, suicidal, crying and laughing at the same time, and then I’d be extremely hyperactive full of ideas and really creative, coudn’t sit still, felt euphoric, and now im just getting the odd mild mood swing now and again, it totally messes your head up.
And I can’t help thinking what if I haven’t got bipolar and it’s something else instead? even though Iv been diagnosed, do those symptoms above sound similar? I havnt a clue how I’m supposed to feel 💕
I’m on lamotrigine as well (bipolar 1 with rapid cycles) along with seroquel currently. This is the way I try to think of it - I will never be symptom/cycle free. I know this. It’s finding the med cocktail that can minimize the cycling effects that are manageable to live with. I still have episodes and always will, but it’s more abt being able to still have them and be ok if that makes sense. You still don’t want to be alive but you dont want to kill yourself - that’s the best way I can verbalize it. For me that’s the cycle sweet spot. I’ve never had anyone one to talk to or cld relate and have found journaling (brain dumps) help for me sometimes.
It’s an awful feeling when you don’t have many people to talk to, I don’t like burdening my friends with stuff, mental health services are a joke, is it normal to not have intense mood swings anymore on mood stabilisers and just having mild ones occasionally?
I’m also here for anyone who needs a chat about anything as it helps me talking to people too! ♥️