I need to hear from people who understand
I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 17 and I am now 19. Before I was medicated, I would experience these weird things that I called severe anxiety. For example, I went through a period of time where I thought I had bubbles over my head that allowed everyone to read my thoughts. I remember getting out of that period and thinking how that made no sense, but it caused a lot of grief in the moment. I am not sure what that was and I wonder if that was part of a manic episode, but I’m not sure. These thoughts have gone away since I have been medicated, but I still experience episodes of mania and severe depression. ai have been hospitalized twice for my depression and nothing has gotten rid of these episodes. I just feel so defeated by the instability in my life. I am a college student and barely able to function without the support of my parents. I just need a space where someone can tell me i’m not alone.
@persistentOwl7949 I'm not an expert, but I've read that thinking other people can read your thoughts is sometimes called thought broadcasting. It's typically a symptom of a mental disorder such as bipolar I disorder, but there are several other disorders that can cause it, and they do include anxiety. However, if you have periods of severe depression too, that explains your bipolar diagnosis.
You are definitely not alone. According to the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance, nearly 6 million Americans have bipolar. The people I know (in real life, not at 7 Cups) who have bipolar have found that once they got their medication right, which took a long time, they've been able to function much better and avoid severe episodes.
Charlie
Hi. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼 It sounds hard, what you have experienced. Just a reminder that you are not alone. You seem to wanna see the bright side inspite of all and thats beautiful. Another reminder that there is always a bright side. Have a blessed day 🌈💜
Btw, I also understand you. Its not always rainbows and nice feelings. I get it. Be gentle with yourself 💛
You are not alone :) Get that correct diagnosis, correct medication, and regularly meet a qualified counselor. It’s what keeps me functioning in a relationship, a job, etc.
@persistentOwl7949
Fear/anxiety can do funny things to the mind. You're definitely not alone though. I've been diagnosed more than 10 years ago and fear still is able to stealthily creep up to me and whisper all kinds of things to me that don't make sense in hindsight.
When I started my journey after being diagnosed it all was so chaotic... For me that did pass with some proper lifestyle changes and keeping to a rhythm. Also it helped me a lot to confide in some people about some of my greatest fears. You'll find out soon enough that even people without bipolar have plenty of things that go through their heads. My experience is that I just exaggerate these things due to having bipolar. Not that they shouldn't be taken seriously, but rather that what I feel is much more dramatic than that of people without bipolar.
I've heard of the thought bubbles before. Haven't had that particular thing myself, but it comes close enough to my paranoid thoughts.
All I can say is that it's really helpful if you have 1 or a few people that you are able to confide in, which can help "mirror" the state that you're in. Just somebody to run these thoughts by, to see what they think about it. A connection with reality.
Finally, I try to remind myself as often as I can that fear is -not- a reliable advisor and should -not- be used to make decisions.
Anyway hope it helps... Sorry if I completely missed your point with sharing this.
