How do I forgive myself
During mania, I experienced psychosis and paranoia. I've done things which I deeply regret. I believed in something which was not true, I made allegations, which impacted my family.
How do I move on? How do I forgive myself? How do I live ? How do I function when I feel so much shame?
@selfdisciplinedDrum4603
Whate happened is you made some mistakes in life, everybody does it sometimes.. Learn from your mistakes and move on to better things.. Sending good vibes.. ✨️🌲
@selfdisciplinedDrum4603
You won't be able to control your families reactions, they are entitled to their feelings and to heal in their own time and way 💙
But you cannot live in the part forever.
You are sorry and you deserve to find peace , heal and learn from this situation 💚
@selfdisciplinedDrum4603 you forgive yourself by putting your mental health first. find the medication you need, seek therapy and build a support network of people who understand you. but first you must make the choice to get better, to become a changed person. the manic episodes will happen again, if you do not fix it. one day when you are better, you will be able to do something positive for your family, and you will be able to make amends. mania and other symptoms translate into many areas of life. put yourself first, find a way to love yourself, and to accept yourself, and find the help you need.
Thank you, I am on a new medication, I engage in a weekly therapy, I returned to work, I am trying my best. My family is supportive and wants to focus on the future, it's just me who cannot move on from the past.
I just feel weird, I struggle with every day chores, I keep thinking about what happened. I wish I was just normal.
@ForgetMeNot77
i know how you feel
Thank you, it's good to know I am not alone. I hope we both find peace and acceptance.
I was there two years ago. Honestly, forgiving yourself is a process. I still feel shame from time to time. Sometimes you just gotta live and go forward. There is no other way, you know. I felt like this last year when I started forgiving myself and feeling the shame and the consequences. I still feel like this. I still get flashbacks but not too intense. Yeah, the shame and regret. And then it takes time to trust ourselves again. One thing you need to note when you're healing is understanding it is a sickness. It was not your true self. It was you trying to react to a false reality. I think no one is immune to mental illness (I know this is a very outdated term but you get what I mean). Normalizing (I know, there is nothing normal about this) my experience as something that could happen to anyone erases some shame and guilt I feel while recovering. I hope this helps make you feel less alone in your journey. Take care.
Thank you so much for your fantastic reply. It helps to know I am not alone and like you said remembering it was an illness. Illness like any other could hit anyone. It doesn't choose. Thank you.
This is very real