Lack lustre and struggling

I am struggling so much to carry myself as I usually do, I'm very self aware of my bipolar and anxiety but this week I've felt so unbalanced, the last time I felt this off, dark, empty, I attempted 's'. I find no joy in my usual self care coping strategies. I struggle to emote fully and the last two nights I've cried on and off, it physically hurts, I feel nauseous constantly and like my body is on edge, with electricity running through and irritating my every cell. I don't feel right, I feel so off and like I just can't keep doing this all by myself anymore, I'm exhausted and disconnected, discontented and anxiety on top makes it harder to leave my flat or go for a walk. My crisis team are not very helpful and I don't want to be a persistent burden on anyone but I just don't know what to do, I even this time have told those close to me that this is how I am feeling, but it's usual sorry your struggling.