My bipolar disorder is ruining my life
I have untreated bipolar disorder. I’ve gotten diagnosed but my parents don’t allow me to be medicated or go to therapy for it. It’s untreated and it’s making my life worse as the days go by. When I was younger I knew I had bad depression but then i started getting more and more manic as the years went by. Recently in the past year I have been doing self destructive behaviors and I have been deceitful, a bad friend, and I used my rage and emotions against others out of self defense. My mania makes me jump the gun before knowing the full truth. Lately, I have gotten into a bit of social media drama with past friends. This cause the friends to hate me and block me on everything. I can’t say I blame them. I said and did awful things. Should I apologize? Should I let them be? Should I wait til they message me first? I have no clue what to do or how to go about it. This disorder is untreated and is quite literally ruining my life and happiness. Any advice? Please help me.
@blossomleaf176
I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through such a difficult time without the support and treatment you need for your bipolar disorder. While I am not a mental health professional, I can offer some suggestions that might be helpful.
Firstly, it might be worth considering reaching out to a trusted adult who can advocate for you and help you access the necessary treatment and support. They may be able to speak with your parents and help them understand the importance of getting proper care for your mental health.
In terms of the social media drama and the negative impact it has had on your relationships, it's commendable that you recognize the harm caused and want to make amends. If you feel ready and comfortable, you can consider reaching out to those affected and sincerely apologizing for your actions. Express your remorse, take responsibility for your behavior, and share your commitment to personal growth and change. But, it's important to respect their boundaries and choices if they choose not to respond or engage with you. Additionally, don't hesitate to reach out to local mental health resources or helplines for immediate support and guidance.
Take care of yourself and know that there are people who care about your well being. You're not alone in this journey, and with the right support, things can get better.