I'm just so homesick
I miss my home. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my friends. I just want to go back home, it's not fair. I'll never be happy with my new life. I just want to go back home and see my friends again. That was reality, this isn't reality. None of this is real life, let me go back to my reality. I got to be myself threre, here I'm just pretending to be somebody else. I hate this new body, I hate my new family, I hate these new friends.
@purpleOak9329
Thank you for sharing your feelings. It sounds like you've got a lot on your mind, and like you're missing home. While that's about as common a feeling as it gets, that doesn't make it feel any better.
When we move away from home for whatever reason - school or work being two notable examples - the adjustment period of getting used to our new surroundings, new people, new roles and responsibilities, and new way of life can be difficult, sad, and draining. There are people who we've left behind back at home who we wish could be there with us. Food we used to eat, experiences we used to enjoy, and a certain way that we could just "be" there which, for any number of reasons, we don't feel comfortable "being" in our new locations.
Considering the above, homesickness is clearly a deeply-felt series of emotions - grief over a perceived loss of friends and family; stress about adjusting to wherever it is we are now; and a longing for the feelings, people, and experiences that we can only or almost exclusively enjoy at home.
Your feelings are very normal, understandable, and unfortunately, intense. While homesickness tends to get much better with time, during the time when it's at its peak, it can feel so hard to pick ourselves up and keep going. It's ok to feel that way. Most people do at some point or another. Some common coping methods for people feeling this way are calling or writing home, listening to cheerful music or watching funny movies/TV shows, engaging in activities which you enjoy in the place you're currently in, and socializing with the people around you there. I hope that you can soon find relief from these feelings, knowing myself how painful they can be.
Always feel free to chat with a listener or to send me a message if you'd like to chat more about this.
Best wishes for now,
@ShneurZ