I ruined my life...

I (f21) had been dating a guy (m21) for 2 years. For our anniversary I bought us tickets to a concert. at the concert while drunk i compleatly spiraled and threw my drink in my bfs face, stopped answering my phone, and was angry that I had to go home with him and jumped out of the car. I know I need to be hospitalized... but my main trauma that actually triggered the episode that I've been stuck in for awhile now is some dr trauma. I don't know what to do. He has pretty much broken up with me (were taking a break idk its complicated im actually writing this from his room but just work with me things arent ok). I have been kicked out of my house, may have lost my boyfriend/best friend, and besides him I have no one else. at this point im homeless, have no friends or family left, and out of options. I dont even know how I need help, but if anyone has any suggestions on how to make this situation any better please...