Kimmkimm and InsertPunHere
@InsertPunHere
Hey. I created this thread to know how you're doing and as a way to keep in touch. I hope you're feeling ok 😊
@Kimmkimm
Thank you Ms Kimm
@InsertPunHere
Ms. Kimm? I feel old that way. I'm Kimberly, Kimy or just Kim 🤣
@Kimmkimm
okay kimberly
sorry
@InsertPunHere
Where did you learn spanish?
@Kimmkimm
in response to where I learnt spanish
accidentally missed that one
so sorry
I am at a gcse grade 2 in it but I also am using a dictionary
(grade E equivelent i think but i was reallly feeling bad in the mock and my teacher is a patoranizing _____)
I am learning at secondary school
@Kimmkimm Hello
@danishdanish
Hello Danish. Welcome to 7 cups
@danishdanish hello
@InsertPunHere
soy es un toruga
@InsertPunHere
Hahaha. That was really funny.
Soy una tortuga. And don't worry, I also take some time to respond
@danishdanish
Hey Danish, how have you felt here? Have you liked this place?
@InsertPunHere
How are you today?
@Kimmkimm
A little better than averege, thank you Kim
I am currently in discussion with a listener who has DID and I think I also have it - I'm kind of relived to know exactly what is wrong with my brain
Also been reading up on gender forums because I am a little foggy
when it come to sexuality (or lack there-of) I know where I am but I just feel wierd about Identity
7 cups works wonders
how are you ?
@InsertPunHere
So you think you have DID? That's a relief I guess. Dissociating may be domething scary if you're not sure about what's going on. Do you think you have more alters?
I've been spending the last day of festivities with my mom and I'm as happiest as I could possibly be. She'll leave tomorrow morning and I'll be alone for the rest of the week again. I feel a little sad though. Not being able to tell her what a terrible daughter I am. I know she knows something because of the way she looks at me, and I know she suffers for my silence, But I promised to be strong and to enjoy every second I'm with her.
@Kimmkimm
"terrible daughter" ???
you seem a nice person
@InsertPunHere
I try to be as cute and sweet as I can but I've done bad things and I know my mom would be so disappointed
@Kimmkimm
@Kimmkimm
we all do at times kim
there is no need to worry
if you honestly try to be nice then you are as nice as a human can be
the truth is we as a species struggle to be nice
If you feel unconfortable talking about this then there is no obligation
but I want you to know almoast everyone on here either wants to help you or feels similar
stay strong kim
@InsertPunHere
@InsertPunHere
It's not a truggling to be nice. It's about feeling guilty and ashamed and mental self-harm. It doesn't matter what I do, guilt is always there.
@Kimmkimm
huh..
I relate but don't really know what to say
@InsertPunHere
You don't need to say a thing. Anyway, I don't want to go deeper with it. I don't feel too comfortable talking about those things in a forum
@Kimmkimm
I forgot this was a forum - so sorry
@Kimmkimm
I shouldn't be so damn intrusive
@Kimmkimm
About the DID thing
from what reputable sites have told me I am fairly sure I have it
I just can't seem to get the pop-culture,dramatasized, tv visulisation of it out of my head
I act very different at times as if there are diffrent people in my head
the rest is well ... kind of hazy
I'm kind of okay though
@InsertPunHere
I've talked to many systems in here and each one of them is a world, and amazing. I know it must be something new for you but I'm happy because you're discovering and understanding what happens with your mind. That's a start. And I'm sure there must be systems in the adult chats and they can explain you a lot.
@Kimmkimm
thank you
*platonic hugs*
@InsertPunHere
I don't know why, you intrigued me the first time I talked to you and there are many things I'd like to ask but I know it's not correct to do so.
I'd like to ask about your spanish, though. Where did you learn it?
@Kimmkimm
@Kimmkimm
another message that I accidentaly missed ?
feel free to ask me anything ?
I won't be offended
what about me did you find intriging or is that just a very inconventional compliment
I do not understand (normal) people.
I have just confued myself by skipping that one and going back and forth
@InsertPunHere
Sorry, maybe I asked too much
@Kimmkimm
of course not kim
@InsertPunHere
Good morning. Just checking in, how are you today?
@Kimmkimm
I ___ed a mock
I was not told we even had it
I sat down and my head just went blank
I could not think or breathe
I got 40 percent - the test was "one of the easiest"
I spent all lunch cyring
how has your day been?
@InsertPunHere
I am sorry it wasn't good.
May day has been horrible and full of flashbacks. I'm sorry for not being supportive today 😭
@Kimmkimm
do you mind my asking about your flashbacks ?
(no obligation ; I know we are still in a forum)
PS.
It's compleatly fine ; I don't know why you are apologising ?
@InsertPunHere
I just read a couple of you previous posts after I got a little lost with other comments and realised I f'd up by asking that
sorry
@InsertPunHere
I wouldn't mind telling you but not in the forum.
I can't stop thinking how two months ago from today I was a happy and normal girl and someone destroyed everything and now I'm scared of everyone and hate everything including myself
@Kimmkimm
would it be wort creating a lister account ?
it's kind of annoying that adults and teens can't talk but I understand why
kind of wish I put my actual age in.
@InsertPunHere
*worth*
thank you for bieng so open
@InsertPunHere
Yup, it would be nice to talk to you in PM. May I ask how old are you?
@Kimmkimm
15 - I put in 20 ish by force of habit
@InsertPunHere
given I've talked about some pretty ... topics
I think it would be best for me to stay on this side anyway though
@InsertPunHere
No. You should not be there, you belong to teen side and you can be a little brother to me. You can send an email to community@7cups.com explaining it and they will fix your age and move you to the teen zone. I'd love to have you here
@Kimmkimm
I have a couple great listners and they know that I am only a teen
I would rather not have to go through the whole thing of trying to reconnect with a new group of people
@InsertPunHere
I understand your frustration about teen-adult not being able to interact. In my case, I'm happy for that because I'm too tired of harassement and here I've found a safe haven for me and my friends in here.
However, sometimes I feel like I'm their big sister and I'm responsible for them. It would be nice to have an adult taking care of me and being in charge. Sometimes I want to talk about things that I can not talk with my little friends because they wouldn't understand or they just don't have enough experience to give me an advise. I'm not sure if this makes sense to you but that's how I feel.
@Kimmkimm
It seems strange that someone would harass you on here
when I saw "Oh, and one more thing. I'm aroace, so f*** off and leave me alone" I was quite surprised
this is usually quite a friendly community
I'm sorry for what happened
@InsertPunHere
This place is awesome and they do their best to keep it safe. But, you know, stupid people are everywhere and it is impossible to control them all. I've had terrible experiences with 3 disgusting listeners and they were very explicit and triggered me so bad. That's why I recomend looking for verified listeners. But, I repeat, it's not 7cups fault. There are plenty of awesome listeners here as well.
@Kimmkimm
I didnt know it was so bad
*sending hugs*
@InsertPunHere
So how's been your day? I had to go to school for an activity and I could see all my friends. I could talk to my best friends and I feel so happy right now
@Kimmkimm
Middle and right ones in my pic 
I love them so much and missed them horribly
@Kimmkimm
Thats so great kimberly
I've just been allowed onto (non virtual friend)'s discord
@InsertPunHere
I wish you were at the TCR now
@Kimmkimm
huh ?
@InsertPunHere
Teen Community Room
@Kimmkimm
I will email them if I can still speak to Aishi in the event I switch to teen.
they are one of the only people with DID, they are really nice and finished some of the listener certification but are not yet verified but it says on their profile listens to over 18 only. I think they can do both after bieng certified anyway ?
to a certain degree they know me a little better than I know myself.
@InsertPunHere
But I also want to help you too.
so I will see what can be done.
@InsertPunHere
this might be of use but only listners can read it ?
https://help.7cups.com/hc/en-us/articles/360026081214-I-am-an-adult-can-I-volunteer-as-a-listener-for-teens-
@InsertPunHere
Yes, it doesn't let me read it
@Kimmkimm
assumed so
thx
Hi
@LadybugJournal
Hello LAdy. Welcome :)
@LadybugJournal
hello Ladybug
how are you
sorry for my late response
@InsertPunHere
Yay! Love the picture. Cat!
@Kimmkimm
huh ?
@InsertPunHere
thx I guess
My DID host is called vigil
I tried to find an image to represent him
this is how I mentally imagine him
@InsertPunHere
I understand.
May I ask who have I been talking to all this time?
@Kimmkimm
Virgil but a large part of my old host remains.
usually I am a lot more shy and socially relusive but I am forced into social situations by (biological name) / old host.
the others usually only come out in short bursts or specific situations but I know they are there In my head and they are all under controll. the others are better at handeling their emotions so... (chill is earily good at it)
It is a little hard to describe so sorry
@InsertPunHere
I probrably would be alot more productive if not for my old host.
@InsertPunHere
Nice to meet you, Virgil
@Kimmkimm
thank you I guess
@InsertPunHere
Who's been fronting?
@InsertPunHere
How've you been?
Hello Virgil. I haven't talked to you in a few days. I'm sorry, I've been enjoying my time with my mom.
How have you been? I hope you had a nice weekend
@Kimmkimm
I havent been on in a while either
I am very sorry
My listner has moved to discord so I forget to check
really shitty of me tbh
I've been okay
you ?
@VirgilAndOthers
your new profile pic looks nice ^w^
@VirgilAndOthers
Awww, that's nice of you. It really helps my self esteem 
I'm glad you've been ok. You know where to find me if you ever need me.
@Kimmkimm
Members don't have PMs but members have forums. 
evil members haha.
@CaptainRex
OMG little brother, what are you doiing here? *Hugs* Yeah, we've got forum and we know how to use it!�
I adore you, little devil.
@Kimmkimm
Heads up sister!
(I saw it on my home page and I saw your name and though of reading it, then I realised what was this intended for. Then I came to say hello..)
Sorry for disturbing/triggering you
:(
@CaptainRex
What? You didn't disturb nor trigger me, and I loved you writing. It is always a joy to read you.�
@Kimmkimm
No I mean in sr
:(
@CaptainRex
It wasn't you. It was that girl Kitty. And it was not her fault, she has the right to speak freely. You know how sexual assault topics trigger me and I couldn't stay but I wanted her to speak because she needed it. That's why I apologized and I told her I had to leave. I hope she didn't feel bad about that and she could receive the support needed.�
@Kimmkimm
Oh right sis I talked to her too and yeah sorry some things never get better:( no matter how hard you try. Recently a member said that things got better with time and that was very offensive because, you know what disability my best friend has:(
@CaptainRex
Lol!
Who says members can't PM. it's not�personal�but the notification thing is�cool
@CaptainRex
Hello
@VirgilAndOthers
Hey you!