What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
i hate that i'll never be as much of a man as i want to be. i hate my stupid female looking body with everything in the wrong places and my stupid squishy face. i hate how short i am and that I'll never have the opportunity to be tall and beautiful and not seen as just that one weird almost-trans confused kid. i hate that i'm even confused in the fist place. i hate that i can't be the person people want me to be or the person i want myself to be. i hate that nobody really cares. i hate that people don't respect me or my time or my effort. i hate that nobody ever follows through with their promises to me, and i hate that because of this i cant ever make promises to anyone else. i hate that i can never get things done and how i always waste my time doing other things. i hate that nobody ever asks me if i'm okay, and that i'm always the one that has to pretend to be okay for their sake or help them feel better when i feel absolutely terrible myself. i hate a lot honestly
@basil531
i guess some of these arent really about myself, but it all comes back to me being the reason in the end.
I hate having this body and that as looking femine, I always have to be careful outside. I wish that I could look more masculine or androgynous. I wish that I could be able to open up more to others but me being my selfish self, can't. I hate the fact that my brain makes me think that my family is more important than myself, that I'm willing to be a mental mess thanks to my family, but they don't even know about that. I hate the fact that thanks to having this body, I have to go to multiple pointless appointment to doctors who don't know what to do about the condition. It just makes me feel like a burden to myself and others.
I am a stupid idiot and can't do anything right and I cut myself and overdose
@Faith4anewbeginning omg. Are you getting any help ?
@Neeme2020
Technically no but I haven't really told anyone .
@Faith4anewbeginning your profile name
is so positive . You have faith for a new beginning ? If yes what is a baby step you can take
@Neeme2020
Yes i do Neeme and baby step I could take is telling my parents about everything
@Faith4anewbeginning good plan. I am
sure they will understand and help you with some resources . You are special
I hate that I cost so much money. I hate being the "smart kid." I hate having to live in civilization. I hate how my mouth is tiny. I hate that My siblings are smarter than me. I hate that I can't do anything right and I always disappoint my parents. I hate living.
i hate how i am doomed.
I hate that I give up on things so easily.
And also that I'm so damn afraid of literally everything.
I hate that I am a mess. No matter how I try to improve my life, it slips deeper and deeper into a hole of despair.
I hate that I absorb negative emotions from others. I hate that I can not let go of bad memories. I hate that I can not deal with critisism.
that i cant control myself
I hate how I am always so reactive. I hate how I look.
