What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
@cosmicjellyfishqueen
hate my anxiety, hate my feelings for an married chef hate my dad for not trusting me since I shoplifted long time ago. PS : I had changed a new leaf I do hate quite a few things
The easy answer would be "all". But I think, that my self-doubt, my insecurities, my inability to do what i want properly. my inability to express my needs correctly. my inability to get any objective, like making friends... my inability to connect with anyone. it frustrates me a lot.
My inability to love myself and be confident in my own skin
Hate how unsatisfied I am most of the time. Feeling so lonely when surrounded by loved ones....Hate longing for deep meaningful (to me) discussions...resinting loved ones who don't stimulate me spiritualy or mentally on a level that which I desire. Hate missing past friends. Hate not being able to share my thoughts or ideas...thinking others won't comprehend or find significant. hate feeling suppressed and alone.....searching for something sacred that I can experience WITH someone I love
I hate how i try so hard but fail so often. I hate how i can't control myself or my thoughts. I hate how i always feel like this.
Everything. I'm not even welcomed on this stupid app..I can't even get support in the support chat and it takes 2 f----- weeks to connect to a listener..maybe it's a sign I should give up when help dont even wanna help you..
@AubeQuinn You could start a thread and get support that way. I've found its easier and reaches a wider variety of people. I'm sorry they make it so complicated to reach a listener, it can be incredibly frustrating when you need to talk but there's no one to listen.
@mytwistedsoul it's a waste of time. I've tried every support chat. I got ignored in support chat 24/7 because they wanna talk about eating junk food. In regular members chat I just get told to get better insurance while they laugh at me and got told that I shouldnt complain. Nobody is even in the current events support chat. I cant connect to a listener. This stupid app doesn't even show you how to start a thread. So I give up. I'm going to go relapse now and hoping I just die so I dont have to deal with this bullsh-- anymore.
@AubeQuinn I wish I could help you a little more. I'm not sure how to create a thread on the app. The app seems very difficult to navigate, I use the web browser on either the laptop or phone. I'm sure there must be information on how to do this some where. I just haven't been able to locate it yet. It's my understanding that you can report inappropriate people in the group chats. It's very inconsiderate of them to act that way towards you, not everyone acts that way here.
I hate that I have mental problems.
I hate my face, my brain, my genes, my behaviors
I hate I'm toxic. I hate that I'm unlovable. I hate that I'm ugly. I hate that I continue to seek validation from others. I hate that I can't do anything good at the things I love. I hate that I'm short and my skin filled with scars, pimples and ugly hairs. I hate the way I smell and that I'm fat. I hate that I cry a lot and pity myself like a pathetic piece of trash. I hate that I can't just accept that I'm trash and I get disappointed a lot of times of myself. I hate that I'm stupid and I always don't do well on tests. I hate all of me.
I hate that I can't be open about certain things and just be myself