What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
Everything. My body, the sound of my voice, my personality, my life.
I hate how helpless I feel for any outcome in life. I hate to open up to people around me cuz even if I do they'll brush it off. I hate how social anxiety & depression cause me not able to make friends cuz I'll have panic attacks once I get to know someone, I worry myself crazy on how to talk, how to think, how to not offend someone, how to not run away... and I hate how lonely I feel just because I feel like a monster. I hate being robbed of everything I ever wanted and I hate feeling stuck in a cycle of blaming others and not having the strength to get up. I hate feeling powerless so I put on a RBF all the time hoping to not let people to come near me. I hate how distrustful of myself around people. Lastly, I hate justifying what I hate cuz it makes it ok to be so but it's not and I'm at crossroads about how to just live life...
@Adeline12345 Hi. I can't say I know what you're going through, because everyone expeiriences things differently, but i definetly relate to a lot that you said. I know that it can feel like people are judging you, or don't want to be around you, or hate you, or anything. I deal with my brain telling me these lies everyday. But they're just that: lies.
When's the last time you thought someone sounded weird when they were talking? How many people do you really trully hate? How many for just the reason of existing? Probably not many, if any at all. So why would people think that of you?
I hope this helps :)
@LetsGetBetter08
Thanks, I always forget that! I guess it's the daily constant reminder that we have to make to break the cycle
everything
how i fall for stupid guys who dont really love me then get heart broken. i hate my body too
How about im innocent a crime that i didn't commit and i was convicted with zero evidence a Attorney that i paid my last $2500 looked my case over and said nothing in there no evidence. Problem is i dont have $30,000 and thats to get it back in front of a judge which i dont have and not all people believe me because i was convicted and have to register as a sex offender. And you think you can help me im at my all time bottom, i cant believe people will treat other people crap worse than any other person on this planet an some of you call yourself a Christian or that you care but in reality it's a chosen care. You choose who you pretend to care while the other person is in pain possibly take there own life because of the way people treat others and the restrictions that are placed on people who are innocent & accused of or who are guilty but the government & people who actually are guilty. The evidence is out there and our government lied to the American people & the government has published evidence that proves they lied but nobody or not enough people wont listen or not the right person. I dont know what to do, nobody will give me a job or place to rent or anything they run a background check. You might be depressed ha you are nowhere near how i feel.
@Semicrzy1234
I hurt reading your situation, and truly if I was able to help I would. Becuase I AM that kind of person. But I'd like to say, do not tell others that they do not feel a depression as deep as your own. We all are here for our own reason. But I nearly took my life with an electric hedger. I know what pain is. And we all know what pain is. Though we may not be here under the same circumstances. We are all looking for help here. So, I apologise. I really do have a heart and care about your pain. I've never been the type to say what I don't mean. That's a small peace of what I hate about myself. How blunt I can be and it hurs people. But I tell you listen to me now! You can not claim your depression takes you more effort and agony to face each day than anyone else here. Becuase if I wasn't at the rock bottom of my hope and will. I have to much pride to reach out for help.
@4343AKcolors
I also hate that when I'm ranting I fail to fix my spelling. Dangnabit!
that I am alive
I hate that I struggle with depression and anxiety
I hate the anger I feel
What i hate about myself?
Well i guess i hate everything about myself. I'm a burden to m,ost people I fail more then i can accomplish. I'm messed up in my head. I worry a lot, I create many problems and hurt other more than i can help them. I failed my friends, I failed my family, i've failed everyone. I have depression and anxiety. I feel alone nearly everyday. I always seem to feel the need to hide to run away from every problem i have. I'm a coward and i'm not someone you can depend on. i'll try over and over to get somewhere i need to be but i'll fail. I can't rest or feel relaxed knowing that all i'm gonna do in the end is screw things up. But i am still trying. I know i'm not smart, brave, or helpful in anyway, am i'm sorry if i'm wasting your time, or space. I'm not important I just a mistake.
@BSM13 Hi :) I'm not saying I know how you feel, because everyone experiences things differently, but I definitely have related to a lot of what you said. I know that some days you can feel worthless, or stupid, or a burden, or a mistake. I've been there. But really those things aren't true. Depression feeds you those lies and convinces you of them, and anxiety makes you think of them all the time. But I promise, they're not true. One day you'll realize that. I know it seems impossible, but I made it out of that. I know you can too.
@LetsGetBetter08 Everyday i go through this pain of feeling like a burdun to others, To be a failure a disgrace, a mistake. I'm no good in this world. i'm not good enough for anyone, I hurt most, i make them scared, worried and upset, and for what, i'm nothing, i'm worthless. I have no one that cares for me out here in the real world, here they all hate me, i'm just another idiot that should've never been borm in this world, i just ruin things instead of being good and helpig them i hurt and break them more. I've failed, I fail, can't do much else. Failing is all i'm good at. I feel in love with this girl i could never be with, and that also hurts. I guess i'll have to deal with it, and just be alone.
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@BSM13 I know this sounds super corny and all, but it DOES get better. I'm living proof. Are there any people in your life who you think are completely worthless? That don't mean anything to you at all? Probably not, so why would people think that of you?
You're NOT worthless. Have you ever made someone smile? Have you ever given someone something? Helped someone? No matter how long ago it was, it must have happened at some point and will happen again. These things might seem small but they might have changed that person's life, and hopefully they'll continue to spread it.
I don't know if this helps but I really hope it does :)
@LetsGetBetter08 That's what I'm hoping for and I will keep hoping. To be honest I know not everyone in this world hates me but in this home i live in that's kinda how it is, and here i don't think, i know cause I was told, my mother, father hate me I'm not a good enough child to them i'm not good enough for this world. There's been people at school that have been the same as my family telling and showing that i'm hated. I haven't help much but when i do i quickly ruin it all over again, I'm struggle to be better but that seems impossible. I need to change but I can't. I'd rather run away from my problem then face them. I've only made one person in my life ever smile and not hate or at least they never told me or showed me in any way that they hated me. But they are gone now, and there's no one in this world(offline) that has showed any appreciation towards me or showed me anything good that could've helped me feel better. But i guess i deserve that because all i do is ruin everything I fail everything and sooner or later I'ma lose everything.
@BSM13 I'm really sorry you're going through all that. I can't even imagine having a family like that. I don't know how old you are, but at least one day you'll be able to move out and remove yourself from that toxic environment. No one deserves pain like that. But one day it'll be worth it, somehow. Maybe you can use your experiences to help someone else. Maybe they'll help you appreciate things. Maybe they'll leed to something you could have never imagined. I know this all sounds really cheesey, but it's true. And if you've made someone smile once, then you can do it again, and those little things are what gives life meaning. It doesn't matter how many times you mess up. Everyone does somehow, you just probably don't notice it as much. But we all do, and that's okay. The most important thing is learn how to move on.
@BSM13, i'm so sorry you feel this way. I feel the same way. I used to have dreams but now I know they were unrealistic, because I failed at every single thing i tried. I now have a very dismal outlook for my future. I don't see anything bright coming at all.
@purpleTree4652 Please don't be sorry its not your fault i cause this to happen, i could've done better, i wish i could, but i'm not good enough for anyone I'm sorry for that, I'm sorry for everything, I'm just worthless, and all i do is hurt everyone. I'm messed up, sorry. I can't do anything right.
every damn thing i hurt myself physically all the time because i despise every fiber of my being and i see hurting myself as a good punishment for not being good enough